morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary is that a question or a statement? instead of spending 3 hours attempting to prove a point, how about we just come out and say it. i'm angry. almost bitter. always the same scapegoat. well not alwyas i believe i actually have 3 of them but thats beside the point. there's that word again. once again, music from a long ago time. i am spending tonight playing donkey kong on my super nintendo and listening to moby and pendulum. just like i used to. on monday. i once wrote that it's easier to think straight wheen you're not writing stoned. makes sense doesn't it. perhaps, only sometimes. brainwashed. i believe i have mentioned it before. get confused sometimes ya know, between this and all my other writings i get confused with the persona. who am i again? oh yeah, thats right. momentary lapse of clarity insight sanity. nice. it's not that bad that i'm nice all the time is it? what would i achieve from being an asshole? a repuation? already got one. your approval? i'm trying to convince myself i don't need it. bad karma? i've got enough already. i'll just keep being nice. no harm in that right. even if it doesn't live up to your standards of how a girl like me is supposed to be, as though if i wish to dress the way i do, i have to act to suit it. who can be bothered. i didn't start it off as an image. why turn it into one? "but thats a lie." pendulum are great. disc one of three knocks. beautiful. or maybe it's disc two. whatever, it's the slow one. amen. -- it is -- emotional. dirty word ya know. confused. heartbreak. depressed. wrong. wanting. you. hurt. all dirty words. -- i have done my best to delete these words from my mental vocabulary. pathetic i know. don't start this again. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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