it was raining before and it was beautiful.

it has been easier to create outward atmospheres lately.

ohh well.

getting lost in things that aren't me lately to.

it's scary.

and odd.

also i notice an increased amount of stoner ramblings which is never good, we very rarely get anything of substance during these times.

over a month now.

over a month and i haven't really been sad.

just inspired.

usually, the two were joint circumstances, one couldn't occur without the other.

and now seperated.

at last?

not sure yet, still collecting my thoughts on the matter.

so with the letting go of this

--

she can't let herself say it. go on just say it,

letting go of the sadness

see, you're still in the body aren't you?

--

where was i?

lost.

thats right, i am now able to reach for

i'm realising more and more how fucked up other peple are.

in absurd ways.

certain people, who one would always percieve as (insert word i'm trying to think of), are really quite confused little souls.

and they don't even know it.

i notice words missing.

happens to much these days.

shit

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