irish.

older than me, alot older.

doesn't matter.

alwys knew i was to.

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think i could be getting conned

think perhaps i should make an attempt a rational thinking

then think is it happy?

did i see the change, and yes i did

holy shit

yes i did.

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i think it will help but i think thats ok.

get rid of being blocked and i won't need for it to be real to be writing about it.

perhaps i won't need to be writing a all?

this is my worst fear.

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lose all forms of inspiration.

what would i be then?

the same as all the others, lacking in something, lacking in substance.

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he talks of things that are too crazy to believe.

but i want to, oh how i want to.

filling me with false hope to get me through the rest of the year.

we shall live it in the hands of the powers i suppose.

we met through a series of coincidences (is that how it's spelt?) so what is meant will be.

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he had a crucifix with him.

big one.

said he'd had it for 10 years.

h put it in front of me and told me to pick it up.

then walked out of the room.

i went to touch it and couldn't.

my hand got close to it and i immediately recoiled.

force power whatever

it was strong

incredibly.

i couldn't move.

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he asked (quite seriously) if i was possessed.

i laughed.

that doesn't happen and if it does, it doesn't happen to me.

how else do you explain it?

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strange places, as usual.

says this place is bad for me.

the town i live in.

i have known this for awhile.

it's not good for anyone in my family.

yet we all came here.

a series of coincidences.

so will she escape?

will she get out sooner rather than later?

will it be physical?

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questions doubts questions

anxiousness overwhelmed apprehension

full of this

calm love peace

safe comfort able

full

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am i still here?

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