i'm ok with it though.

feeling content.

usually i could only claim to be halfway

now i think i'm there

nothing left to grieve.

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i need to tell kane how much i love him

try o help him as much as is possible

which probably isn't much but it's still something

think the most important thing is that he knows that he's loved, immensely

that he knows that he;s gorgeous and stunnig and a fucking star

no, he already knows it

he needs to not forget it.

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alex.

i can't help you anymore than i already have.

you've helped me alot and i need for you to know that.

need to say thank you.

but what more do you want? i can't do anymore

i don't know why you're angry why you're not talking

perhaps i wasn't the only one who took couple of steps backward with my returning

keep growing

please, don't stop now

come and see me next year, don;t lose touch don't lose life

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certain people who i don't know what i could say to.

gorgeous people

i've met a couple of them while i've been here

jon.

precious jon.

by far the most

wonderful thing

so wonderful

i'll have to tell him that, make sure he knows it

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this has served it's purpose.

living here, being a bedroom dweller, all the pot the sadness the blood the words the songs

all served it's purpose beautifully

given me more than i thought i would get

always knew i'd come out on the other side

more beautiful than ever

i'm feeling comfortable now

comfortable in my own body, in my mind, in all of it

and it's a good way to feel.

not scary at all really

theres no room for fear, i think i'm full of love

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