watching

(the world with wide eyed wonder)

a strange world between waking and dreaming

a haze

[tastes like chemicals]

or battery acid

-

i'm existing

within something within myself

uncomfort

able

my mind is full

and blank

of thought

pictures words sounds

ideas

theories

(breakthroughs)

but how

and on what

(no dialogue)

how fortunate

the man with none.

-

(love)

dream like state

caught myself getting lost in the library yesterday

so carried away

alot happened in the library.

-

i'm thinking too much and i haven't been able to write properly for days

it won't stick

i can't

slow it down enough

to hear it properly

-

it's all a struggle

(still thinking an end will come even though i'm looking forwards)

something has to come

(because we can't do this.)

we can't do this.

-

i'm lost again

(what happens if)

it's back again.

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