morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary i have written 201 entries in this diary - numbers are strange. - it's my birthday soon. this is strange my 17th birthday (even stranger) feel so much older so much younger a number isn't the right way to put it - i don't know what is. - i haven't written in here in a couple of days strange days they have been strange days. - thinking - too much and too differently to normal don't really know what to think of it all ha haha. - yeah she's back to this again sad to see isn't it (bang) hmm - this afternoon has seen beth orton a purple see-through mesh top and long patchwork skirt (stoned, staring, coffee, reading, tv) at the drive in a short red check skirt and black t shirt with red silky cool thingee on the back (i can't think of words properly) (stoned, staring, coffee, reading, writing) mostly just staring lying down have been the main theme in the last couple of weeks i think (really not sure) of anything we can't be and this is apparantly why things are blissful - i think thinking about all that universe shit (i;m still thking about it, can't seem to stop it, i even dream about it) has made me depressed even the grand bits the most joyous things i've ever discovered just - make me depressed - i can't be bothered to explain why - alex came over last night a nice night strange also (predictable - HA!) - this afternoon i had this idea of wriitng a whole entry about my family because on my walk home i really thought about how bizarre we are in some aspects but obviously i didn't end up writing it a pity to, because i was thinking about it for a long time, off and on throughout the afternoon planning things usually when i do that the stuff never gets written but i though that i would write hat one maybe i still will - yeah it's saturday night sunday's the only day i don't have to be at work before 8 sunday is grand - terrif (i watched half of a movie with julie andrews and mary tyler moore in it today. it was a musical, set in the 20's. they were 'flappers' julie andrews kept saying everything was 'terrif' at one point. yeah..) - 963 times do real people actually read this shit or do you just look at the pretty picture - i find this whole diaryland thing quite absurd really and also kinda depressing because there's so many sad people around eating disorders - yeah wow shut up - life is happening i think i don't know if i am though - or - if i'm happening and life hasn't even begun - guess i'll find out one day - (the sad thing is, i probably won't) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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