what to say.

yesterday was beautiful beyond belief.

nothing matters, theres nothing else..learning german in the car

softly singing bizarre love triangle

(excuse me but..frente are just great. remember accidently kelly street? yeah..listen to a song called lonely..and not given lightly)

taps on pretty shoes

lingering fingers passing a cigarette

and miss bek she is Too divine

her divine gracefulness miss bek.

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and i had so much to say

about my pretty day

but it turned out that i came hom and bled

because i didt know what else to do

mr mark

he

he

he does these things and i dn't expect them althugh maybe i should

and he made me angry

maybe not angry, i was disappointed i was..i don't know

hence more chinese paper cuts under bracelets

but then he apologised.

late night msn conversations..sorry for being unfair?

sorry for being rude

only say sorry if you're not going to do it again and you throw that fucking word around so much, when it's something i think an apology is actually in order for it just seems meaningless..careless

you should keep her in your pocket

she's special.

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but i got to do his hair

i got to give him bjork big time sensuality esque little bobbles.

you know the bobbles

he looked Gorgeous

and miss bek decorated my ruler for me

and we smashed some glass

some plates on a table

we have a box of plates, but they have to wait..for a hammer

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i dislike it because theres moments when

well when you were here

just the other night

you referred to the time when

we were together

(ouch, what are we now????)

and then

our bodies were all intertwined

and you grabbed my hand and we both felt awkward

in that first moment

of handholding

and looking at your face?

having your face so close that your nose is touching myne and your open eyes..my open eyes, neither one of us can stand it

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the wisdom of a fool won't set me free?

everytime i see you falling...

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and last night when he left i was

i was sad because it became clear that

i can't even say it

unbalanced scales

disproportioned ratio

something like that.

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miss bek, you saw my little smile

because it is exquisite.

if only you knew bek

but i have bite marks all over me

which is great

i imagine miss bek still does to

neither one of us were biting..just bitten

oh it was a beautiful day indeed.

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i had a great dream this morning involving him

in a blue velvet jacket

and lips

his

on myne

it was nice

and friendly.

soon i will be there making them chocolate cup cakes in a pink and white striped apron for breakfast

she said she won't let it dry yet

yes, definately not.

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