morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary - yesterday i met a little girl or rather met a man whose name was randall who introduced me to a little girl whose name was Talula. - i was followed by (or rather just plain followed) a man with skinny legs in tight flared jeans and a purple tie dyed Jimi Hendrix t shirt he had tattoos all over both of his arms (looks like he's wearing a long sleeve shirt, my eyes weren't on them much i was..distracted somehow) corner lip ring strange but great hair after awhile after he was everywhere i went and vice versa and just as i was leaving in maybe less than 30 seconds so many sweet little shared smiles comfort recognition just that 30 seconds finality - i don't know his name but ther's a possibility he knows myne. - i had dinner with my grandparents. they had meals i had bread. - i gave my mother a rather large picture with flowers a house etc. and on the back wrote a little message and signed it love and inherited grace always ... - i suggested to benny that we elope. viable option. no molly for a good 10 years though. - my stomach is all fluttery i'm always anxious and or excited about something unknown something mysterio - (i met a woman) felicity she had a mouth like yours.. - i masturbated (of course) got off on powerlust or rather power memories do you remember? keys in my hand smug smiles tears in your eyes looking UP to me flesh under fingernails ohh dear. - it was necessary do you remember this time last year. i do. it's the same kind of cold the same smells or maybe not really i remember. all too well because all this time well i thought i'd forgotten about it. - i've a feeling these memories will haunt me until it would be equal time since he left since the seed of fuck was scraped out. - but then perhaps still i'll be haunted (my insides are still shaking worse than ever) by equal time since i wasn't living here. equal time since i was for fucks sake i really need to get some shit together - 2 really amazingly cute boys just knocked at my front door i heard them saying something cute as you can't miss her man is sam home? no he's not will be soon though i'm in my pajamas black and red felix the cat $3.99 yeah - so empty. - the dreams? well now the dreams are so much longer so much more detailed and i'm so AWARE when i'm all wrapped up inside them but as soon as my eyes open all the memories are lost come back in Tiny spurts over the next hour or so maybe but i always feel so good in my dreams they do not lack. - my stomach. i'm so uncomfortable in my body. how do you fix that? so uncomfortable in time place location everything can't move immobilised i can't think of anything to comfort. perhaps just get over it get on with it don't think about it but still temporary solutions everything is temporary nothing is solid. doesn't it make you dizzy? it makes me sick. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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