like i've been

smacked

-

everythings slow and fuzzy

really fuzzy, white haze

i like it.

-

have to be so Numb

still

quiet

don't...make a sound.

tiptoes

-

peaceful funny little crucifictions

little getting rid of's

little abandonments, masochists

-

the strange things that make me smile

music in the other room

-

sweet.

like petals and long walks

and the times that make you (me at least)

realise religion of sorts

the way things piece together, lollipops

psychics and detectives

-

-

had a thought.

about molly

(i killed molly)

no.

who would molly go to?

with

how strange.

-

the way down.

-

what a day

exhaustion

waking up with mr manson

nothing else at all would have felt right

-

black and red

-

and desperate moments between bedsheets.

feel that? thats alone.

-

thats reckless abandonment.

thats carelessness.

foolishness.

selfishness, Greed

indulgence.

stupidity.

(genius)

thats kamikaze darling.

-

wrapping up a heart

like a dog thats been hit by a car but walked away

think you've got the message?

-

i bought a book yesterday.

to send on down to you

i

i don't know

-

i do it to myself you know..

of course you do

you probably scream it to my ghost

or not

maybe there isn't even one of those

anymore

i tend to talk myself out of some thoughts

i bend my realities too too often i think.

i break

the threads

choices..

the things that decide for us.

hmmm agent orange

-

putting names to things

to feelings

it doesn't make sense

-

not here.

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