morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary decorates your eyes. ok. hmm quiet down and breathe honey. wake up. (wow it's one of the days that somehow deserves bit by bit break down. how lovely. and it's not over yet.) oh don't get excited rambling..mumbling stoned sorry but i waited all day! all day! till about 10pm (amazing!!) - i say at the moment i see splendour on saturdays horizon. yes yes yes and Right reasons i think girlish fun and pj pj reasons and just one day matter of hours even things no one can own. - i've abandoned the bit by bit break down. sorry. oh i feel nice today. i'm all mismatched clothes and things things - hour long phone conversations (such strange time though!) and pyjamas tucked into knee high socks. - and plans well we try to make plans 2 of the most indecisive whores you may ever see we'll have a carwash.. - hmm banjo. weird. and a hey! a hey jess i hated that. wanted t blatantly ignore that. oh ha ha and the one you got didn't at all At All my dear sound like the one i gave maybe best better things, she knows, she knows, she knows whats going on welcomed it in - the blank entry dear, you yes you you you note leaving dear was nothing special at all, intended for here 'you know what? fuck it.' that was all. love. - go and listen to this bic runga song 'election night' if by chance you haven't already - yes slowing down breathing. - so i wake up and feel disgruntled because thats how i fell asleep annoyed that i desperately have to pee and am naked and don't want to wear clothes but theres people and wrap a blanket around me and as i open my bedroom door i hear someone knock at the front door there was no way i was going to answer that. but anyway i should have blanket dress splendour and all lovely amanda..black and red hair (!!!) like rich shiny licorice and the part and jumper and everything, you were such a nice sight this morning lovely (mwah!) wow sorry i'm a little out of it maybe. anyway ------------------------------ i advertised the ticket on my self and on a notice board "ask Me about splendour in the grass!!" haha only one person asked, and he obviously had no intention of going but was obviously quite stoned and i think rather amused to see..well the word grass and maybe kind of awestruck by the prettiness of the word 'splendour' (that happens to me. awefull.) - but i asked some people and some were all positive responses and one girl the first one i asked came back at around 4:55 with her boyfriend (like she had promised) but by this time it was in my heart to avoid her with All of my might. so i did. ha! speedy escapes..the scotty jo jo oh gee, remember how we were in highschool moments really cheesy really i don't know. i ate a fizzer. no one can seem to agree on their former price at the warehouse they are 20 cents. i remember them as 15. - tomorrow is soap opera love life day. wednesday is hmm catching up with fuckass? and probably being pissed off in the afternoon, the amazing breaking free moments and so much laughing on the short drive home thursday is much of the same but add in neurotic definately odd (cooky even) but i think gorgeous aleisha and the up my nose or on my skirt, 'i'm not on anything hey..' why am i - anyways throw in some bek. because she's good for the soul. and maybe somewhere in there even a little more amanda? because she's good for everything (is that offensive?) - gone, gone far away..beautiful beautiful - and this pj thing oh and yes well yes maybe a bit of CJ (baywatch? no..) hmmm...roar - it's really Really cold tonight. really Fucking cold. even. ahhh mmm - oh and it's my mums birthday. and i made her cry. for a Bad reason. usually it's because of..love and happy things but it's ok i made her smile after smile much more than she cried i even sent a goodnight kiss in an sms? i've never done that before. but i should, more because she's lovely i thanked her for life. what a i don't know. - i haven't spoken to him yet. - and the other? the one with the hey. not even going to - hmmmmm canNot! oh. i think i saw a flash of mr thomspon today i would love to be learning about brecht again more more. - counting days - so many little trains, got time? let me tell you try to - waking up and feeling the emptiness, even if they are just thoughts you know, i feel their abscence well now who the fuck cares if i'm too young too fat too fucking anything else now that it feels like there's nothing to lose. nothing at all. i talked of freedon. strange. - you know maybe it's nothing at all. voices missing voices, rareky Heard voices and voices that would always Shock - if gravity let us go short as it is big chunk really and growing growing little hopefuls she said plucking the phone cord like a like a instrument - i'll promise you what i can (not much, i haven't got much) please remind me. - hundreds of moments that i've Lost pieces in everybody feels that i imagine say my name aloud. i forget myself positive to just Let Go and how often do you have to shout - watching stars explode - breathe so slow (how strange the sound) - i wonder if you know my sounds if somewhere on a page you're telling me to shut up or to be louder sometimes it was for you. alot of times it was for you. wow alot. is that what is that? imagine your name on the tip of my tongue and you know where the tip of his is oh! - not for anybody else to know.. but i told you of new years? ahh shoosh shoosh shoosh quiet Down honey..... umm well shit. it's 10:53 (i went and got stoned after the first 2 lines. it took a little while.) i think maybe i'm done. love. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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