morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary ----- u do have alot of rage. *searching for words...complete lack of brain function* so many thoughts...shouldn't have come on while i'm like this.... i hope to never see it directed at me. ----- fuuuuuck......cigerette. tht'll help m think..... ----- something makes me think that this growing..changing...feeling blessed for the other is not one sided.... ----- never before has a single person occupied my thoughts so much..and so incredibly... ----- so many people at the moment showing me the good in myself...i'm not used to it. in a way it scares me because... well i don't really know why.. perhaps because i don't want to be pulled out frmo my little security blanket of self loathing and evaluating. being told things i need to hear, maybein a way even been longing to hear... ----- ----- sharing time with you...thats a compliment in itself ----- intelligence ----- "miss modest you must just have one of those personalities no one can resist" ----- thinking about me later... ----- me to ----- there's something in the air.... ----- and it's almost spring.... ----- and all of this scares me so much...why is this?? why can i not just be happy in all of it?? still searching, still analyzing, evalutating, .... i am ambivalence in all it's glory and that means more than i know... ----- "tears are falling from my face" god you are beautiful ----- ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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