morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary it's a horrible way to live your existence and i always thought i'd be better than that. in all honesty, i think we all always knew that i wasn't. damn. that sucks. ahh, so eloquent, am i not. -- the worst is when i have to sit here awaiting inspiration. i used to know exactly what i was feeling. thinking. what have you. always the focus on thinking. moulded it as though the focus was on making other people think. that i didn't ave to worry about myself. i have been so focused on vefremdung that i have forgotten what it is to feel. i just don't care anymore. but obviously i still do if i'm still sitting here, writing this. as usual, she is full of pathetic contradictions. and that same old word has returned yet again. -- most of the time i just write because i enjoy seeing my fingers fly across the keys. the words appearing on the screen. this serves no other purpose than to amuse myself. still not making sense. -- jon is such a nice boy. -- should be able to get some good writing done in the next couple of days. going to mums place. with a bag of weed and my trusty red pipe. -- ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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