Be true 'cause they'll lock you up in a sad sad zoo

Oh hidy hidy hidy what you're tryin to prove

By hidy hidy hiding you're not worth a thing"

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perhaps one would be wondering where this flash of hope has come from.

perhaps hope is the wrng term to use?

it came from sitting on a swing.

swinging and listening to cat power.

chan marshalls vocals tend to have quite a soothing effect on me.

'damned if you don't, damned if you do'

such a cliched line but it hols such truth.

always the thought of the same thing, life in my hands and i smash it on the floor.

all thats holding her back is the thought of others, what it would do to those that she loves.

either way, there will be sadness.

either way, the sadness won't last forever.

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so now we're back.

and comfortable.

we are creatures of the wind.

wild is the wind.

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i've been having conversations.

good, interesting, soulful conversations.

this is quite unlike me, because it's always hard to find that level with a person.

i've found it with many these last few days.

found it rekindled with some and sparked with others.

and it's wonderful.

today i felt the best i can remember feeling for a long time.

of course, there are still moments of the messiness.

but i can force it to not effect me.

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i hear the sound of mandolins.

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