morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary walks through bushes 'sometimes a boy just needs a walk through the bushes' we're young, this is the time to experiment he said i told him i thought i was a lesbian for awhile he said that was odd because he sometimes thinks he's gay - clothes coming off and a black t shirt to lie on we are almost identical long sleeves under black t shirts naked except our black studded belts which would clink clink together and scrape on my skin i have bruises on my thighs scratches on my back and bite marks on my neck and nipples i've never felt more disgusting and never felt more alive. - the night before i kissed a boy for the first time in a long time (the irish mystic doesn't count) and it was sweet and innocent and beautiful and everything that a 16 year old girl should feel - and i was drunk. both nights. - i'm meeting nice boys and nice girls from melbourne who want to show me their bead collection wearing astroboy shirts and loving my sister getting a bit freaked out from time to time but knowing how to calm myself down now - killed my baby on monday and i've never felt better. - things are going ok and i think i've found a new level. i think i'm going to start drinking alot more maybe smoking less pot and trying some new drugs. and i'm going to splendour in the grass next week. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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