to get a drink in this place?

what does it take, how long must i wait?

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reading over things i've written and i have to say that i was surprised

i'll send a package in the mail and hope that my nice boy will make sense of it all

alex and i had a night together last night and it feels as hough i've never gone

just like we haven't seen eachother for a month

not much has changed except now we're more honest and we know where we stand

he said thank you and i siad the same

for what? for evolving

with me

in the space of a year

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my beautiful hippie girl who has been mentioned before

is having a baby

in 7 months she will have a child

this strikes me as odd but i'm so fucking happy for her

right reasons

she'll be a good mum

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i'm feeling empty at the moment and i want to write so much so fucking much but what i just don't knoww hat anymore

when i read all my stuff i got fucked for 3 hours wondering why, why did i do it, why did i hurt so much and why do i have scars all over my body?

to remedy the situation i went into my room and with a piece of glass gave myself 8 new cuts up my leg

pathetic i know

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first time in awhile though and fuck me it felt like heaven and a half

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you bet your life it is

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this version of cornflake girl i haven't heard for much much too long

feels like nothings changed and i never let you go

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if i was a different kind of girl i'd think that you got freaked out after we shared the magic l word

if i was a different kind of girl i might be able to tell myself that

but can't even dare to go there because what if it's true and you didn't mean it and i got too excited over nothing

a lesson i learnt a long long time ago to not get my hopes up because then they can't go down and i abandoned that for you on tuesday night abandoned everything i stood for you and told you that yes, i did to and yes, it's a little to late to be aksing my permission

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my friends here telling me that she got on with her girlfriends and thank god i wasn't there

because girl to girl loving loses all it's beauty wen it's just drunk girls trying out their limitations

never was a cornflake girl

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go tori

where'd you put the keys girl?

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what am i doing.

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