morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary a change a shift. - i spoke words yesterday about myself and my girl that were so true i cried - i had never spoken such truth before. i had never known such truth. about anything - i'm going to go back not because of my sister not because i'm scared not because things aren't good but because i ran away from something and now i can go back and make it work and i know i can - i don't doubt myself anymore - i think i'm better i think i'm better i think i'm better - and i'm not scared becasue i know that it's right i know it i don't doubt myself for the first time i can remember i don't doubt myself. - i have a plan to work and to study (psychology) and to save to save for what? i'm not sure yet. to buy a car and do what i always dreamed of to drive away, drive off and find life and things waiting for me i'm not going to die anytime soon - i hadn't planned this far ahead but i understand now that it's ok and that things will happen as they are meant to - i think it's going to be ok i'll have moments where i'll start to slip or at least think i'm starting to slip but they'll pass as these things do - i wouldn't go as far as to call this 'inner peace' but i think it's the closest thing to it that i'm going to feel for quite some time and i'm happy i'm content. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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