morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary

- 2003-09-30 10:17 p.m. i'm pining for this boy

(let me tell you the story)

he was beautiful and i never got too meet him face to face

to taste his flesh

(now it looks as if i maybe never will)

we decided we had fallen in love

that this was out of our hands and we could do nothing but succumb to it

(bliss.)

i think i'm still in love.

-

the beautiful girl

that i am and that i see

i wanted to share her with him

i wanted

to show her

to him

-

he's gone from my life

it seems

i tried not to think about this for weeks

and i succeeded in that

until now

-

he would have looked good next to her

i had never felt anything like it before

and i still feel it

and it is

the biggest

thing

but it is

the lightest

thing

a beautiful feeling

-

i know it now

nd i thank him for it

but i miss him

-

i keep telling myself that

one day

(one day)

i will hear from him

but perhaps i never do

and i grow, i get over this

forget about this

fall in love with someone else perhaps

and never hear from him again

-

i've never had something like this

where i feel that

that simply could not happen

i have such faith in this

still

(i should probably let go, something like this could ruin a weaker person)

i have never had such faith in anything

and what

makes it

is that

(somewhere i know it's the same)

for him to

-

i always thought

that love

would be a disaster on me

that i wouldn't be able to pull it off

but it came so easily

it felt so

natural

real

-

i would still die now if it meant i could be in your arms

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