morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary i'm still listening to ani and i umm well i started work yesterday and someone asked me 'so, who are you?' and it tok me by surprise because this person is very very beautiful and the fact that they would care to hear the answer to the question felt like something wonderful i asked him who he was he shares a name with he who i have been sending everything to over the past couple of nights. - he told me he's been searching for nothingness his whole life. - yes he's very beautiful. - this is absurd this is really quite sickening how i'm thinking about boys like like i'm in primrary school this one that one i'm in love i want sex well i didn't have sex in primrary school. but that doesn't matter. - i don't know if it really feels absurd or sickening. it just feels kind of normal lately i just feel like i'm letting my mind and my self travel as they wish as far as thoughts and feelings and reactions to things are concerned i'm just letting them go. feeling a little too much perhaps i spoke of fear today. - apply that to everyday conversation - it's been raining today a beautiful beautiful day (theres no need to repeat myself as much as i do) it was like this on the weekend a great big melancholy covered the sky sadness was in the air - i got asked out on a date today i'm not going to say yes because the guy kind of freaks me out just a bad feeling about him, something thats not right i think that i need to change some things. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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