morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary staring. at a page, that is empty that i wish to fill - like a dream like a life - thinking thinking (she never stops) even in my dreams i'm waking and even then i feel it the uncomfort the awkwardness not right, i don't fit things don't fit - somethings wrong - i thought i was going to die yesterday - something needs to happen - where do i go from here i need something to show me just point me in the righ direction and i'll make of the rest what i will - i have to wash my hair at some point tonight i have alot of hair. i lost my hair tie at work today everyone was 'oohing' and 'aahing at me as though it was some secret weapon i had and i had been waiting for just that moment to let it loos (it wasn't like that but...thats how it worked just the same) i could overhear this guy say that he wanted 'a piece of that' and the guy standing next to him said i would be 'too tight' and that he preferred older woman - my hair made me feel self conscious - kinda scared - but really really hot. - as in...not the temperature - so yeah my hairs really dirty and knotting up again s i think i should wash it and then go and get stoned in my red t-shirt and black underwear and my cool (it'll be clean then though..not quite as cool) hair (oh well) - apparantly nothing... - amanda my darling (someone had 2 girls kissing against their car on saturday night. they probably don't even know....and the pole felt love) in less than 2 months we will be returning from woodford in a new year possibly with an entire new outlook on life and the universe - and drugs. - wonderful. - there's a boy beautiful boy (talks of darkness with an accent) if one of us doesn't act within the next 3 days we may never see eachother again - this is a daunting though. - more than likely i'm not going to do anything. he probably won't either - this is a big problem in my life a recurring problem (obstacle) some other word whatever jess it doesn't matter. - jane says. (gonna start tomorrow) - i need to go wash my hair. get stoned and then wash my hair - (i love you all little diaryland people. i think being able to read other peoples thoughts, however...sad/morbid/whatever they are, probably make us worse but feel like they make things better. but it can be really beautiful....i like to feel as though i'm being heard, without having to interact personally with anyone) xoxox ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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