morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary sometime in my sleep ran straight over me flattened me i am vertical but i don't want to be. - the dream bus is coming fighting, clawing my way up through depths of unconscious grasping onto something, anything i am awake alive i am real? words prove the validity of my existence i am whole a hole - in colours i can breathe still an ache for you the smell of you buried in my hair the cigarettes and the sex and the love burning out, leaving a collection of ash for us to clean up, scatter in the wind like leaves falling the tree of personal flaws - if i would die for you somehow that would make a life complete i would be mourned properly i would be remembered as a martyr of love and of life i am nothing but i am all i am things which no one can see or know the light is blinding the beauty is blinding i am deafening - if you were to die for me it could serve as an excuse to end my own life faster you are the breath that graces my lips, just for a moment you are all that i am - in a thought and an ache we live, survive multiply the pure desperation that is this sordid affair we know nothing of what we do the damage we're leaving in our wake you talk of truth and honesty and fairness fairness if life was a game there would be no rules instead life is a lesson a school full of discipline and restriction - i caught that train while it was moving smacked me off my feet and left me battered bruised bleeding and beaten i am defeated. i am defeat - ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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