when i did something like that

i got in trouble.

i got late night angry voice phone calls.

i'm not going to make any angry voice phonecalls. i refuse to.

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violently lost.

all i know is

i taste nice

at the moment.

and i smell pretty good too.

my hairs been smelling really good lately.

it's weird though

isn't it

that he can't even have a conversation with me

and there was nothing in that email

that could be considered offensive.

nothing.

it was just mindless dribble..i like these colours i did this today blah blah blah

nothing offensive.

don't you dare use that.

i'm all empty and shit, this day has been a complete void

drinking...drinking

and so much pot..i'm not even getting stoned anymore it's just like having a cigarette

i can't believe he did that.

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and i hear this gossip and well

well

ahh i don't know

marks fucked

amanda said

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and then

hmm the magic b word

not that one..the one that ends with 'y'

ohh dear

all of a sudden

theres a feast planned

of miss bek

miss

PJ Harvey

and mr

concrete junglist

altogether

all at once

maybe even mr mark

if he cares to make that trip

what a trip

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i'm really fucking amazed that he just did that.

really.

seriously.

amazed.

i don't know why....ahhhhh why be surprised..

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things got weird when we started having sex.

maybe sex is evil.

but really...it's not as though im...livig an otherwise good christian like existence

he's got no excuse.

to even attempt truth would be to swallow pride and well

no...

it's not going to happen with me.

i'm going to go do something mind numbing

copy and paste i imagine

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