alanis morrisette is.

was.

whichever.

i got hit with a massive craving after seeing the ironic film clip on tv just before

and well

i taped over supposed former etc.

but

i have

jagged little pill on cd

so it's all good.

-

quiet days..

everythings stale you know, not really much to say

mutual lack of feeling?

i didnt even want to talk to him last night

and she

seemed like a child in the midst of a divorce

unaware

surprised

hurt

-

but really i've no idea what she was like

i don't know these people.

-

how relevent she is

ms morrisette that is

hmm

-

but lots of mr

Junglist

talk

oh lots of it you know

talks of

sigur ros

(so i go out and buy some)

hmm

wants to interact with people i talk to

wants to know about them

and

innuendos

publicly

oh my.

-

and see the truth is, i'd love to be down there this weekend

or next

but

i don't really want to see him

interact with him

put up with his Shit

but oh yes

of course i could do with some of

the rest of it.

i bought him a jacket you know.

a maroon velvet jacket.

oh yes it's going to loog so good.

-

dolls...

dress ups

-

unlocking secret rooms?

beautiful hidden rooms?

yes

i've got those

and nice girls Do right

nice boys can to

-

and i just want to write you know

so stop reading right now if you want, you won't miss anything i just

want to talk.

-

last night i started cooking up some plans you know

ohh such big plans

do-able though, it's all do-able

i was thinking i could

maybe try and find another job

more hours because really

i don't Do anything, i just hang around and get stoned and stare at the computer..or a wall

so, i could work my ass off

for the next 6 months or so

saving money because...i don't have to spend an awful lot..

hmm

i don't have to buy pot.

such a grand thing.

-

6 months..sacrifice the sleep ins and maybe cut back on the late nights

turn 18

need to decide if i want to drive or not

and well

take off somewhere

take the money i make..

something like that

-

and i'll go by myself.

not running to benny

nothing at all to do with mark by this point i imagine

bek of course

bek will stay around, she is just

immuteable

-

i'll just go by myself.

i've a fair idea of where i'll go but that bit can stay locked up

with me

for the moment

-

me and cosmo

furnished place

or a caravan.

-

but we'll see won't we.

she's so fucking lazy or just not motivated or just

something

something something something

-

pleasure principle

flat and empty.

-

did i mention i'm overweight and grotesquely ugly??

yeah

(pathetic isn't it)

well i am.

it's ok.

we can stop pretending now

-

i dyed my hair last night to try and help it

i don't know...

-

i want amos moses junglist how far down is down to come back

and tell me more about

Amos Moses says:

hello

Amos Moses says:

my favourite person...

Amos Moses says:

you are a person arent you?

Amos Moses says:

not really an angel?

Amos Moses says:

your friend sarah seems to think youre a fallen angel

anything at all.

(lend me some fresh air.)

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