morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary my lovely beautiful one and only miss bek today in a hospital in brisbane has to pull the cord on her mothers life support system. the machines flash pretty colours she says no more tears she says not today. i'm scared she says. - yesterday it all happened yesterday out of nowhere aneurism stroke blood brain damage operations vegetable you have to make the choice valium. - i wish to wrap her up more than ever i wish to rip out every part of her that is hurting and scared and lost and angry and paint myself with it and in turn give her all the light and love i have in me ohh miss bek i want to hold her in my arms, i want to kiss her forehead, stroke her hair, hold her hands let her beat me when she feels overwhelming anger at whoever it is that controls things like this the living and the unexpectedly dying let her cry into my chest tell her it's going to be ok, she's going to be ok (how utterly useless) sing beth orton to her it'll pass in time... - she was so strong when she called her voice didn't crack she even finished telling me and said 'on a brighter note i saw pj on the front cover of a magazine' she is amazing. miss bek. miss bek. my whole heart is with you today for as long as you need it. she'll be here soon i'll wrap her up and never let her go. i love her. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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