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6 months

so strange

all of a sudden it feels both longer and shorter

i get

filled with such regret

remorse.

pathetic and stupid.

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it's like

it's like

it's like everything seems just

not real

like it never happened at all.

happiness

is a warm gun.

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i am more empty than a stomach on the way home from an abortion clinic.

i am more empty than a rinsed out old jar of coffee

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i just am.

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i need a fix, coz i'm going down.

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