morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary and i had a whole bunch of pretty words to describe them with but something smacked them out of me. so, to put it bluntly i just walked down to the beach, talked to my mum on the phone, smoked a joint and wrote while watching families fish and the sun go down got incredibly carried away with how fucking wonderful and Fresh everything seems how much i fucking love that boy kissing his mothers cheek with a smile on his face listening to some wonderful ambient glitchy electronica lots of stuff, luke vibert, nostalgia 77, qua, dave miller/eve millard then i noticed the ocean things were starting to be coated in a black so i made my way down there, lifted up my skirts and procedeed to..flirt with the ocean and incoming little waves for a good 45 minutes. it was actually kind of turning me on. so much so that the only reason i stopped was to go and lie down in the sand and get myself off like crazy slowly though oh no, i didn't want to rush anything slowly..teasing myself even oh so close..no, not yet precious looking up at the stars though and out at just this vast blue space kind of misty - and benny benny benny - fuck, really i love this boy. he just makes the whole world seem different, more beautiful - so there i am lying there after Finally letting myself orgasm and looking up, watching the stars i see a tiny little cute one kind of shake and dislodge itself and then start moving (i'm fucking serious. don't laugh at me) moving slowly across the sky.. for a good, oh 30 seconds to a minute? and kind of flashing..sometimes red, sometimes just..your usual star colour and then it just disappeared. to my eyes, in that 30 seconds to a minute it looked as though that star moved about...80 metres pretty cool hey? the books i've been reading have been talking about ufo's, the 'gardeners of the earth' and such so seeing this was kind of comforting for me - but you know those moments, flirting with the water i think i can honestly say i was "at peace" with myself and with everything lost in the moment, completely absorbed in it everything was free. movement. it was really beautiful. benny! i can't stop thinking about him. cannot. stop. not that i want to. i feel good. (my baby's feeling good.) there is something on lilith fair on tv tonight. how exciting. You are so hot. oh my. i highly recommend public masturbation and bonding with nature. - found something and when she writes it's like she's writing right to me i could make a mistake of replying one day no, not that silly don't let a name slip. are you a real person? - i can't wait to taste you. i'm called a need a want an everything what happens in 7 weeks? ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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