what a nice thing. can you imagine.

oh..i'm anticipating, i'll let you know how it goes

she's talking about virtue

and i think WAITING is the worst, not sunsets

or maybe i'm just happy to be free for once

or twice, many times over and over you know but it

well i've left the world outside today

and i'm running on well what the hell is this? passed out pilot

(the one person, who really knows me best)

mm hiss, spit

bad bad bad

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i forget

what some funny things taste like.

mm, the extravagence?

hello can i have some proper sentences please. can you say something

say something.

and learn to use question marks..and pay attention to the sinking in your legs

question marks where they're necessary. not mid sentence.

darling. don't be a grandmother (sit up straight)

talk about grandmothers...maybe a little later. lovely though, just lovely

really feeling so much better

been shouting that for weeks now? something about august i think, look at last year? today (yesterday?) bizarre..pretty stupid.

ha

oh

come onnnnnnnnnnn

appreciates the phonecalls..

what would you say? given the chance

well nothing at all.........i had an undeniable craving to (not even hear your voice) just somehow be connected to you (still can never manage to say anything right..leave me alone) in some sort of 'real time' so you were there and so was i and there was almost shared air

between us.

just to listen to you breathe..i think we always preferred eachother that way. in breaths.

can't believe i just

ahh nevermind

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and amanda are you aware it was nearly a year exactly, to the day? i think. the first time, the original video camera miniature tree epiphany day

fucking dr karl

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would you like to know something really sad? of course you do. you wouldn't be here otherwise (glow in the dark)

hmm well i could almost

almost

almost

i could almost

.......glow in the dark? walk in circles..write lots and lots of lovey diary entries about. my cat..

i'm not even going to get started.

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come on come on come on

waiting for something drastic

so very numbed out though

this other girl who updates her diary 5 times a day sometimes

bring the angel food

you can smell my broken wings? well darling tape me up

i think you've got to be pretty (yes, pretty) though

and soft enough to be soothing but

mmm sharp enough to

well to

to stir incredible impulse. irrational. my favourite.

how are you getting home? oh i..don't know

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no angry anymore? oh dear i do think too much

i feel as though i'm still waiting..come on come on come on

and if you are looking for Substance of any kind

obviously there is None of it here, best to save time if you haven't already moved on

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ok i will go somewhere else then.

hope life treats you Well.

and you realise who you really are.

much love.

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