but i've been lucky enough to stumble on some really nice diaries lately.

some More really nice diaries.

someone i used to know

cosmos affectionate like crazy

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so i kind of

borrowed a digital camera from work

(i paid for it but i plan on taking it back after the weekend, i need the money)

and there's going to be photos extravaganza

oh yes

and of bauple as well,how strange

and cosmo

and things

it's going to be fun

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and

well

it's like "nothing happened"

or something

i'm not complaining

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things are nice and surreal most of the time

theres this nice little

wow, bubble

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amanda were you there that day when..hmm kane had just introduced himself, and begun making regular appearances 'behind the toilet block' and i

ranted on for ages about

personal bubbles and not infringing on other peoples space sometimes

i just used that word?

i'd forgotten about that

i don't know if you were there, danni was

what a strange thought

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smoking cones just stunts me

hello i've been stoned for a year

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.

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i've beeen getting excited about big libraries

more than anything else

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spare days and big libraries

wow it could even make me wet

oh

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jessica...

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does anyone ever bring back some of there not so nice sexual encounters while masturbating

and really get off on them?

just one or two

most i don't even approach but..just one or two

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it's a little later now

there was this missy higgins thing..that girl excites me

when she says 'gimme a lie'

mm

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i've been bathed in elliot smith tonight

i'm undecided though

i think cosmo knows i'm going to be leaving her for a little while

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he said once

that i may be the bad fruit but he'd pick me anyway

and that

that scar song by missy higgins 'nearly had him in tears' the first time he heard it?

he's lovely

but

and?

hm

nevermind

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("last night i was about to throw it all away")

he says...mr smith

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and it's your heart not myne thats scarred

you've got to love that even if you can't totally

you know, claim it

......just like when tori says in blood roses 'i shaved everyplace that you've been'

but i got over that

pretty much

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i think free credit is just great, two hundred dollars worth?

yes yes, lots of faeries are working overtime

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i've got a date, five years from now you know

in a paris cafe

hahahaha paris starbucks? hahahahaha oh, paris mccafe even?

and it will be a lovely day, when everything will fall into

perspective

or maybe not but it will be lovely

and laughing at the last three years

gosh, i miss you like crazy

gosh!

even just thinking about you can reduce me to a little girl who's had too much red cordugal

see?

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gosh...golly

you guys are so damn pretty

every single one of you! i don't know one person who is not totally amazingly Beautiful

gosh

shucks

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm the smile in everyone!!!!! how babies smile..and don't talk, they get smiles though

gosh

i'm a little overwhelmed, libraries! ah!

wow

sad and happy and in love and totally alone and just

a big fat contradiction with a smile and tears

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bleeding and healing broken bones

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hmmm

bad fruit

ah...nice sighs

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and early nights

i hope you had a really nice time tonight.

i'm reading random parts of sophies world again

i'm really so thick skulled or doped out that i can read this book over and over and over and not even half (not evena third) of it really sinks in

crazy

silly

sweet

and i'll show you

i got to see myself spinning around and smiling and it was really comforting.

today was a nice day. from beginning to now (i won't say end yet)

really nice. everything, just everything

lindas friend had her little girl

people were in bad moods but who cares

i'm going to go eat an orange and go to bed.

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oh before i do, i don't think bleeding in a car is a very good idea love. a bizarre image and it made for a beautiful diary entry (i probably shouldn't say things like that) but

i don't know. i haven't bled for awhile. soft kisses for those cuts though? and forks in every indifferent eye. and a hey buddy, Fuck You man to the..instigator? love..lucia

goodnight!

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