and maybe this might be ok.

still alot of doubt left in that little head of hers.

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nothing but a self indulgent little girl with way too much time on her hands.

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really don't see why letting it go should be such a big problem.

i've lived with it for so long that i don't know anything else.

and we're all scared of what we don't know.

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can't help but wondering if it has something to do with my mum.

her need to always be happy, for things to always be ok (especially when they're not) has become my need for things to be the opposite.

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really not that big a deal.

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if i was one of you people out there, with real problems, real sadness...i would hate me.

i would be the girl who's diary i would read just to laugh at.

because really, what could be more pathetic than a girl who has happiness within her reach and is to scared to go for it.

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and everythings fine.

i can't lie.

nothings bad at the moment.

nothing thats springing to mind anyway.

and yet..it's still there.

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i suck.

and i suck even more for making that comment.

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