never felt so small

as when i think like that

and i've never felt

so much.

as when i think like that

and i wonder

if i should

stop

thinking

like that

but it

feels

pretty good.

-

even hurting because of it is better than not having it at all.

-

i've started seeing you everywhere

(this girl i saw in the shops today)

i dreamt of her once i'm sure

i know her from somewhere

and she knew me to

but i've no recollection of

meeting her

and when i think of her

which is alot because i find it quite bizarre

a strange feeling rises up

sinks

in my stomach

which is very much like

the feeling i get

when i think

like that

-

and i find it strange that

she

may have only been a dream

and so may have you.

-

there's no trace of you.

-

it would be so much easier

if we could do this face to face because

you

would see me and melt

and i

would see you

and know

what was real

and we'd both be still

and you'd realise that none of it matters

and i'd realise that none of it mattered

and we would write a life through our movements

and create

(a love)

a being

(where we overlap)

to fill the spaces between us

-

and you said

that i would make you a better person

you agreed

when i called you a foolish man

you said

too many things that maybe you just didn't mean

(i don't think i believe that.)

i know what i was feeling

and so

i think i know what you were feeling

-

i always thought it wasn't our personas that needed to connect but some other part of us

our souls or minds

or just simply our bodies

to discover freedom and discover limitations

(and overcome them)

-

and i can't get it out of me

that this will never happen because

i feel it would be wrong

in the scheme of things

(ours is a love planned centuries in advance)

if i may be so bold.

-

i've never known this before.

i've never felt this

smallness

in knowing i lack someone else

i never knew

someone

else

would be like this

-

and now i do

and i hope that it's not all you're supposed to show me

(taste flesh)

how many times did you say i love you?

(how could it have never had a meaning?)

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

previous - next