morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary baby where do i begin? ---- 3 days turns into 5 and we all swim into eachother we all indulge in eachother it feels like family to me. ---- things couldn't be more beautiful, nothing more to ask for it was perfect and blissful and we didn't do our planned amazing day we didn't rise till after 3 everyday and absinthe darling that bottle of absinthe indulgences everywhere so much so much So much pot so much sex...... and beautiful beautiful soul touching sex we're more joined, more in love than ever before i got told the stories of 'for 2 months before you two met, he was stalking you' ---- i got played a song that you've written recorded (for me) and you showed me the words 'when i look in your eyes it's easy to see you've got the dying disease or something like that? i want copies of them ---- and a camp farewell party and how on earth do you look so fucking sexy when you're too wasted to stand can hardly stay sitting and you're eating chips and missing your mouth and thre's crumbs on your shirt and you're looking at me saying 'miss jessssicaaaaa' and whenever you ask what i'm thinking and i say 'not much' it takes you back to one night at a service station when i'd said that and you got the better of me and i admitted to thinking about sex with you and so everytime it's not much it's not much of anything but sex with you ---- and those 2 little black haired girls.. is she or isn't she kate? ohh...sakwasa however you spell that and i love to see them watch you and see them licking their lips and thinking about you and you're looking at them and you're wasted (excess) and all i can do is smile smile because it's beautiful to watch them want you and you want me --- in that black shirt and those glasses...ohhhh baby we are rockstars aren't we - and you sung the hari krishna chant to me in bed and we giggled..for hours..like little kids who were having sex (???) and on my required (much deserved) cigarette break, i'm sitting on top of you so from my angle..it looks like i'm the one with the penis and you get me excited about something or you get me laughing and i drop my cigarette on you and it burns (baby i'm sorry) but wow it was hilarious but i got in trouble for laughing ---- and the music that he'd play for us when he must've known we were making us and he sings these lines and you know and i know that the whole fucking house knows that... well yeah ---- and bek miss beautiful wondrful glorious bek there was definately a void those 4 hours that you weren't there 'i missed you guys...so much' ---- and the big invitation or rather invitations because thre were many from all of you 'you should move in here' i would in an instant i would this weekend go back with you all make a home even if it does end in disaster it could be so much fun. ---- (theres too much, theres so much to say in here right now) and you cook me dinner and breakfast and make me coffee and take me to the shower and we break eachothers hearts as always but only once this time. ---- and on the drive down three, i'm so close to you half an hour to go and my phone it starts ringing and it's benny concrete junglist 'how the fuck are you' over 6 months since i'd heard your voice and you sound like a wasted wasted old man whats happened to you? it was a strange conversation full of 'what are you doing?!'s it was nice i liked it but i was on my way to see mark and he was the one on my mind and i told him i'm honest with him always almost always ---- mark i've never had sex with anyone like that. you said it and wow...it's so true 'thats the best sex, i have ever had, with anyone, in my whole life' ohhhhh and it is. ---- there's so much this will all have to wait i'm lacking the ahhh eloquence to do it justice perhaps - lets just say i think i may be moving to brisbane. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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