morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary i'm not at work today. just couldn't be fucked really. - last night i dreamt it. that line. we were in love again hmm - it's all pretty pathetic really pretty and pathetic. can't believe myself (must be someone else) - cleaned out my cupboards without even thinking about it sorted through so much shit organise organise organise underwear and scarves t shirts long sleeves folded pants and the section at the top for skirts (they wouldn't fit in a drawer.) i even hung some more stuff up put tapes in cases and even begn the epic task of labelling them all thought about counting but didn't. cds in cases and cases on the rack vacuum not even noticing. - and tears! woke up with tears oh because the power went out you know and i listened to catpower on my discman and i just couldn't help it it was nice though i was over it as quickly as i was in it - i found some lost things. i keep the most stupidest things you know. all these receipts just to keep track of dates the 4th of february broken day. cat food and mount franklin water how out of the ordinary. he had plans to leave in the middle of the night and i was asking if i could share the night oh just shut up - and all the excitement from just the other day i haven't spoken to her - so distracted. i'm sorry. - my dreams were beautiful i'm convinced i would've had a smile on my sleeping face i felt smiles in my body i felt head in my lap and there was some moment when i was reading him something phone in hand? and he told me to stop and made some pretty speech about when we were in love and how some things hurt and oh fuck i can't remember but it was maybe like we did the make believe thing it was great. makes me think of dave and i having a conversation about lucid dreams 'dreams are just wish fulfillments' - and it's in the temporary isn't it. oh i know what you mean by temporary already cracked rose coloured glasses baby girl i fucking miss you like you would not believe. I MISS HER!!!!!! more than him even different kind of miss i guess - i just got invited to a party on the 24th of july DON'T THINK SO!!! - i'm going to go see pete murray at splendour. probably by myself. i bet you i'll cry. it will be my reflective moment to look at the weekend and all thats been happening and i'll cry. ohh boohoo. - hmm sorry keep the vomit coming. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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