morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary hello diaryland add entry page. - long sleeps again. 8 fingernails coloured in with a fat fat nikko little boys staring as though they just discovered woman and me and pj down by the water - dreams dreams where i'm with mark? by coincidence and we're orgnising to meet later and as usual it's well call me come see me when you're ready in my dream that happened at 8:00 maybe? the fuckass kylie girl i work with was with me and we were both going to see mark and i was procrastinating i looked at my watch and it was 10:00 and i woke up i still hadn't gone to see him, i was scared and nervous and intimidated and dressed in rags with pot plants? draped over me walking around the bathroom - when i woke up i was surprised that i could remember the dream, even though it took a little while i know that towards the end, i was really struggling with it..i think i was panicing about something not so much something about the dream, but the state i was in perhaps panic about myself somehow i don't know but the other night im not sure when it was, it really only came back to me yesterday i had this dream about our house getting raided just quietly that would be horrible. absolutely fucking disastrous. but we weren't being raided by standard police officers, they were like these robot things that could only walk in straight lines and could't like..feel around for stuff, or lift anything up the only way they were going to find anything was if they walked straight into it i could hear the sound of revving engines and soft voices outside my window nd then somehow got a flash Forward to what was going to happen, i saw the whole raid taking place so,i fought to stay calm and try and find good hiding spots for all that needs to be hidden in my room i was scrambling across my bed wow, i can see it in my mind now just like a video anyway i peeked out my bedroom door to see if they'd come in yet and one was like..holding janet up by her shirt with these strange robot claw things and she looked terrified actually, now that i think about she looked like someone who had just been hung eyes bulging she'd pissed herself. i went back to scrambling over my bed and then one of them came in to my room and i was on the floor and So fucking scared and then well actually maybe this was yesterdays dream and this was when it turned into seeing benny and losing that little girl hmm how interesting. - it's wednesday. already. the weeks seem to be going beautifully quickly. miss bek will be here on friday which i think is just fantastic red wine and cigars? = weeks going quickly soon things will only be a month away and then 3 weeks 2 weeks 2 days! oh fuck i think for those last 2-3 weeks i'm going to have constant buttrerflies in my tummy - i've been drawing some kind of strange pictures in my little writing book lately i drew a gun maybe last week i'd never done that before, mostly just because i didn't have intimate eough knowledge of what a gun looks like (details) to try and draw a half 'respectable' looking one but the other night it just came out of nowhere a beautiful gun in the bottom left hand corner of a page hmm and ducks dears and i've been coughing up little brown chunks of stuff it's not very nice luckily it doesn't happen often wow. i just heard from a glorious little burly haired possum miss bek will be here Today! oh my in the pj harvey bay.. - i should really go and wash my hair. i want to have sex to both portishead albums. - sometimes i think i could just not show up. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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