morbidhippie's Diaryland Diary ----------------- well thats just how it happens really isnt it the days you worry about turn out to be lover-ly. ----------------- and it was..all an extra shift, sympathy smiles (fuck off), nice smiles..happy to be scanning peoples discount goods again. some lovely people. and a date! a boy asked me on a date i said yes and gave him my phonenumber. i'm not that interested (at all) but he comes in alot and seems very nice and really...like i've been saying, i need to get a life. amandas going to come with me. because she's my dollface. i'm all cheery and chipper today. i was yesterday as well. you know i think it may have something to do with our love concrete junglist ------------------ it seemed impossible to me that he should want to come back to our funny little thing aftter the weekend, and all the shit last week not a chance he says says my hello how are you's are like poetry to him, now how can that not make you smile it's arousing he says... -------------------- you. my dear. my beautiful girl. i wish i had words of comfort, words of advice even. doubt. i don't know, i'll talk to you soon. -------------------- and i want to wrap miss bek up in all the cotton wool, all the silk i think i saw her pia yesterday and the friend...now, who is the friend? i see her alot. all black curls and white skin. -------------------- as of yesterday i look amazing. surprising i know. batman shirts and all. yes, something has me dancing and smiling at nothing. transient..temporary up and down up and down... ---------------------- but still i had a quick flash of him in my dream last night. not the smiling him...the other..mascara wearing beautiful (past tense) him just a flash...sitting right in front of me, your head on a table and someone standing in a door wayd, asking me out on a date maybe next week i say and your head sinks i've somethings to take care of first. and your eyes are as sad as when i had your keys in my hand. and i was killing off everything we had. shut up. anyway that was that. i got to see you. and you are so beautiful it...it makes my whole insides just..flip flop your lips. but...nothing. there is nothing. and it's ok. - anchormans voice... i wish i could remember the name of the boy who invited me to his sisters party. sharn? shaun? shay? i don't know...80's man. cigarette. what a boring diary entry. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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