deleted parts of that post.

i'd rather state that somewhere else but it won't let me.

i'm listening to hail to the thief for the first time in quite awhile

i think these earphones are better than the ones i had before

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i love him with every single part of me, he's like a warm spot in a cold swimming pool

(usually the warm spot is piss but you know..he's anything but)

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just somethings kicking and screaming

hours before i was ready to say i'll see you in 2 weeks!

excessively impulsive

strange little girl with a fetish for sabotage

hmm inside critic, believe it or not

everythings plodding away feeling somewhat delayed

i think it's the music

and maybe because i'm stoned

and highly susceptable (what?) to minor outside influences

it comes with the territory

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i just need to put that on hold for a little while

i never question it

i don't WONDER if i have feelings of love for you

don't WONDER about respect and understanding and truth

i used to think that one of my favourite things about

you, and me

was that i could imagine

growing with you

that there was this amazing unconditional freedom

no restrictions

unconditional is the word

or maybe i'm just spurting out lines and curves

nofuckingidea..

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ahahh

like sylvia plath and ted hughes

he had an affair though didn't he

and we're not poets

i don't know, what about the john and yoko one..different person but that came out of nowhere too

or did it...bambambammmm

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hmm in there did you call me all those nice things..

hedonistic

dark humour? i can't remember

deleting things is strange

they just go.

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everyday i'd like to talk to you still

to send goodnight messages at 6am

i don't want to be in the way, if you like her then be with her

i just imagine that

any sane straight girl would fall head over heels for you? which is maybe a bit..but i just can't fathom anything else

we seem to lack something lately, like we have routine of sorts? get a hit and go

no

its just necessary

not like explanation is needed i guess

not that i'm doing anything spiteful

manipulative

(see if it was the other, i wouldn't put it past me...funny isn't it)

i love you..

and i say it two times

two

split sections

same words but different different and how Impossible

how ridiculous

but how extravagent it all is

ridiculous

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where i end and

this

begins

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this is silly beyond comprehension

i hope you get it

i hope you're not too pissed off, or not hurt

i feel bad for suggesting that i could hurt you

whats that? like you'd laugh at it

i hope it will be ok, unconditional

don't forget me...could you?

i've every hope (intention) of resuming my position of permanent residency in the base of your cerebral cortex

you know...love x 3

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