but here i am.

(anxious and i'm bored)

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do you remember when america started bombing in iraq? when you first heard

i was on a bus with mr alex on the way to film and tv and we heard it over the radio

the news was "fifteen minutes old"?

and well, it was a sullen moment, incredibly intense seeing as..it was alex and he felt the whole thing quite deeply

but then ahhhhh

well this really sad church-esque rolling organ sounding music started playing

(not sure if i explained that..right, i feel reallly strange at the moment)

but it was just such a bizarre odd movie-like moment it was starting to be truly laughable and then

well the churchy music turns out to be some never heard (or noticed) by our ears intro to ahh

(well i guess it would be nice..if i could)

george michaels faith.

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yeah............that was such a fantastic moment really.

besides the whole war thing..ah i am ridicullously acaring

and talking stoned secret

nothings. nevermind.

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anyway my mum was here

oh i remember

i cried in public today the centrelink people made me cry and i walked and was lost on that very same seat amanda there were tears (one, two, three...fooooo ur) rolling down my cheeks and

warehouse shoppers everywhere.

"you must've read a really good book" she says

?

"thats what you say, the storyline to this really good book.."

oh

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oh my, what do i do?

salespeople. you're in the ad

'excuse me you seem really lovely, will you please give me a hug?'

she did. and it didn't last for long but you've no idea

it eased everything, just for a little while, long enough to exit the shopping centre?

i don't know, so many tears

oh bathroom scenes as well

it was huge

why?

a simple excuse...i could. because i could. and i....well it was needed.

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well fuck you too.

i'm going to bed.

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